Thursday, March 24, 2011
Not really 'keeping track' in the strictest sense,
but today (on my birthday) I thought upon what
my sobriety date is and recognized I'm at just
over 60 days.
Seems strange that it is a relatively small amount
of time, yet it seems like forever. Lots of changes
since January 20th, both internally and externally.
I'm in a much more confident, strong place now,
and it took a lot of difficulty and growth to get
Anyway; good days, bad days, brilliant days,
miserable days. Life. Or, as the song says:
Becoming my own friend and teacher and supporter
for the first time, really, has been phenomenal. I
see so much more good now that I don't buy into
the negative. Now that I don't associate with
particular problem people. Now that I am focusing
on what I can do instead of limiting myself. Now that I am
setting appropriate boundaries and being true to Robert's
needs and wants.
So, anyway....still strong and sober and sane, with
no hooplah of plastic chips or insincere handshakes.
It's all good. A friend is celebrating a 1 year
'birthday' tomorrow; I'm happy for him, and wish
all the best to everyone.
"Yay, me!" as another program friend shared.
We have to be our own cheerleader.
We have to believe in ourselves.
Know your worth and embrace it.
We're valuable enough to protect and care for.
I miss some folks, but the negative connotations
of some (and so much of the program) are still pretty hefty.
It's just easier and better to avoid the problems.
I gotta do what's right for me. Finally.